翻译一句2023.07.12

我真的追不上曾经那个发着光的自己了。
我的翻译:
I actually can’t catch up with me , who glowed in the past.
它的意思: 我真的追不上,曾经想象中的自己{ 如今应该到达 某个自己跟不上的节点 }
机翻1:I can't really catch up with the glowing oneself.
百度翻译:I really can't catch up with the shining self I used to be.
Glowing shining 发着光