“看好了，这一刀会很帅”

Dear Cheems: The appellation bestowed upon me is also Cheems 虽然我也被称为Cheems

Yet I do not bear resemblance to your Persona 但我的生活和你完全不同

My monotonous existence repeating day after day 我过着单调之味一成不变的日子

like an incessant chime resounding within the heart of a withering tree 就像是不停响起的

钟声在枯萎树木的内心回荡

I adore each new dawn immeasurably 我每天都渴望着迎接新的黎明

Yet inner tranquility eludes me still 可我无法得到内心的宁静

It felt as if l were merely an observer in a motion picture 就好象我只是电影中的旁观者

while others moved about 看着人们忙碌奔走

And I remained stagnant 而我却停滞不前

I beseech that reality surpasses fiction's wonders 我恳求现实胜过剧的精彩

and life is not sadder than fictional plots 并生活并非像虚构情节那样悲伤

I implore for my life to be akin to a movie 我求我的生活能像电影一样

Let me confront pain and sorrow head-on 让我直面痛苦和悲伤

Let me leap into the tempestuous embrace of destiny让我扑向我怒涛般的命运

I refuse to remain stationary 我不要再停在原地

Witnessing the gradual decay of my numb remnants piece by piece 眼睁睁看着我麻木的残渐渐腐朽

Instead 不要

allow me to face adversity and anguish headstrong 请许我直面我惨淡的人生

I yearn for realm where I can listen intently with heightened senses 我幻想过有一个地方 在那里我可以沉漫的聆听世界的声音

where nourishment embraces every morsel consumed 在那里 品尝每一口食物

where pristine air fills our lungs alongside sweet water quenching our thirsts呼吸纯净的空气 嘬饮甘甜的水

A place devoid of sorrow or any need to contemplate it 在那个世界里 悲伤不会占据我的思绪 until one closes their eyes 直到我阖上双眼

only to feel autumn rain seeping through soil caressing their hair a moment when they embrace the entire world within themselves秋雨会渗透十壤轻抚我的毛发 那一刻我便拥抱了整个世界

Behold,at this very moment 你看就在此时此刻

I am descending into yet another demise before your eyes 就在你眼前的我 正在向另一处死亡的边缘滑落

bereft of any sanctuary or escape route with nowhere to seek solace 无处可躲 无路可退 无处可去

I shall witness my mundane existence shatter in the abyss of darkness 我终将见证我平庸的一生在黑暗的深渊中破碎

So,henceforth,preceding that所以从今往后 在那之前

Silence wench！

l do not wish to be horny anymore 我不再渴求些什么

I just want to be happy 我只想要快乐

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