00 - Reflections on Love, Fate, and Promises: A Journal of Id Re

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Do you believe in karma?

Do you believe in fate?

I do.

Once, when I was helpless,

I received help from a stranger.

I asked why he wanted to help me.

He said,

"I have a son who works far away,

I can't do much for him,

But I hope that when he faces difficulties,

Someone will help him like I did."

I am fortunate; I've met many people with great love.

They've treated me kindly and offered help.

I want to pass on this kindness, just like that person did back then.

I've helped many people, but I never thought it would hurt the person I wanted to protect.

Perhaps, I'm a good teammate, a good friend, or even a good stranger,

But I'm not a good partner.

What does faithful love look like?

I used to think it meant never betraying, being there during the toughest times, protecting him.

I used to think I did this well.

I used to confidently answer that my conscience was clear.

But... now I hesitate.

When I hurt the person I wanted to protect,

I find I can't confidently answer that question anymore.

I finally understand why friends around me are so enthusiastic about love.

It's sweet, captivating,

But at the same time fragile, like glassware in a bustling crowd.

I'm a novice, so I'm destined to not protect it well.

I don't know if being with them is the right choice.

Perhaps I'm not the one he has been waiting for.

Perhaps there's someone better suited to protect him.

A relationship that no one believes in

......

Maybe it's all preordained.

Love is sweet, but it's also heavy.

I don't know if I can endure it,

But I know I will keep my promise.