Broken friendships and exploded UFO's
我来翻译同人文啦!这篇文章可以算得上是我最喜欢的一篇了w,我翻译了 三 个 小 时 !原作在凹3上.
原标题:Broken friendships and exploded UFO's
原作者:Lemonegg
有三个版本(bushi),第一个是原文+翻译,第二个是纯原文(可能有语法错误或者拼写错误),第三个是纯翻译.想找的话我有分界线.
是未经授权翻译,但并非是商用!如果原作者以任何形式阐述她对此感到不适,我会马上删除的!
第一种:原文+翻译
It's hard being the forgotten one on the Dream SMP, maybe that's why Purpled is on top of his exploded UFO staring at the ground below while a past friend tries to get him to come down.
在DreamSMP上扮演那个被遗忘的人真的不是什么好差事,也许这就是Purpled正站在他不久前被炸的UFO上向遥远的地面眺望,他曾经的朋友正在努力地劝说他的原因吧.
or
换种说法就是
Purpled Alien boy is not loving life and Tommyinnit is struggling to get him to not jump.
外星男孩Purpled的不怎么想继续生活了,而Tommyinnit正在努力地劝阻他 不要跳.
Notes:
贴士:
Hi! This is my first fanfic so I would love constructive criticism, as I am only recently getting into writing.
嗨!这是我写的第一个同人文,因为我刚开始写作所以我会很感谢建设性的建议的!
TW//TW//(科普:TW的意思是(翻译自Edge浏览器给出的英译)
a statement at the start of a piece of writing, video, etc., alerting the reader or viewer to the fact that it contains potentially distressing material (often used to introduce a description of such content)
一个出现在文章,视频等等 开头部分的一个声明,警告读者或观众们这个视频/文章中包含潜在的悲伤素材(一般在视频/文章简介中出现)
Talk of suicide, suicide attempt (?), mentioned ED (like barely
会有提到自杀,包含试图自杀的场景(?),提到了ED(但只是稍微提到
ED我查了一下网上好像没有解释 估计代表着Emotional damage,就是情感上的伤害,抑郁这一类的
(See the end of the work for more notes.)
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The view from the top of the UFO was gorgeous. Before all this, the wars, the fighting, the death, this land was a place of refuge, it was their home. They built it with their friends from scratch, a UFO that would stand up tall above the rest of the server and always be there for protection. It was all that the poor alien who had just recently gotten out of Hypixel could ask for, and yet now it stood destroyed, nothing but the last few pieces hanging in the air by the beam of light that now led nowhere.
UFO上的景色秀色可餐.在这发生之前,这些战争,战役,死亡之前,这里曾是一个慰藉,这里是他们的家园.是他和朋友们从0搭起的,是一个会屹立在全服务器之上的,是一个永远不变的,永远保护着他们的UFO.这里是那个刚从Hypixel回来的外星人所要求的一切,而现在它被摧毁了,最后的碎片被那束现在通往虚无的光弱弱地悬挂着.
Up above, the rest of the SMP was more than clear, even though the storm was brewing he could see the exploded pit that was once L’manburg, the country that took his friends away from them. Deep inside of them, they blamed that Wilbur guy for creating that damn country, for making Tommy and Tubbo and everyone else forgets that he was ever there, that he was even human. That was the country that made Dream, his brother, lose his mind in needing Tommy. No one knew what Dream’s obsession with the loudmouthed 17-year -old stemmed from, but Purpled had a feeling it was because of him. Because they were the broken one, the one who was taken all those years ago, the damaged goods Dream was meant to love. It’s truly no wonder Dream became obsessed with Tommy as a little brother, he was everything Purpled wasn’t, and Purpled resented Tommy for it.
在高处,SMP的风景即使透过这场即将降临的雷雨也显得愈发清晰.他可以看见那个曾经代表着L'manburg的深坑,那个把他的朋友们从他身边夺走的国家.在他的内心深处,他因为那个叫Wilbur的人建立了这个该死的国家而憎恨他,因为他让Tommy和Tubbo和所有人看着他留下的所有痕迹被历史的潮流一一卷走,让他们忘记他曾经在世界上生活过,忘记他曾经是人类.那个国家让Dream,他的血缘兄弟因为需要Tommy而疯疯癫癫.没有人知道为什么Dream对那个吵吵嚷嚷的17岁小屁孩如此固执,但Purpled有种感觉那是因为他.因为他们是支离破碎的那一方,他们是被调走的,那些Dream本来能够爱的,应该爱的...其实Dream对Tommy如同大哥哥般的固执的原因是显而易见的,他有着Purpled没有的一切,而Purpled也因此憎恨Tommy
It was pretty gradual at first, Dream and Punz were so transfixed in watching over L’manburg they assumed Purpled would understand and stop bugging the two, and soon he did. Then slowly his friends ghosted him, stopped coming over, answering his texts, and eventually wouldn’t even spare him a passing glance. Now of course rationally Purpled knew that they were busy, hell governing a country must be tough, but it just made him feel replaceable once again. So he just stopped, stopped trying to be noticed, and took his role as a nobody.
发展过程一开始是缓慢的.Dream和Punz需要监视L'manburg,所以他们默认Purpled会理解他们,会停止天天来骚扰他们,Purpled很快照办了.然后就是他的朋友们,他们落下了他,不再过来玩,不再回他的信息,渐渐地就连看都不看他一眼了.Purpled理智的那一半肯定知道,那是因为他们很忙.管理一个国家一定很困难的.但这还是让他感觉自己是可替代的,所以他停下来了,不再尝试索取关注,默默地做一个透明人.
It was hard at first, but then it was nothing and that was worse in every way. Purpled felt nothing, he didn’t see the point in anything he used to enjoy, even his dog seemed to stop caring. They didn’t take care of themselves because why would they, they didn’t deserve food, especially if he was just rotting away in his home anyway. When the eggpire came to him about killing Puffy, it was the first time he had tried at something in years, and he just couldn’t do it, couldn’t kill the only person who had shown him kindness. They expected to fade away forever, now a failed mercenary for the first time ever, when Quackity approached him. He fought against the eggpire with him and pushed past everything not to be weak, even when stabbed by his past friend Hannah. Then there was Las Nevadas and the whole revival book ordeal, and then Slime was dead and their sword was bloody. Everything had gone black and a few days later he was here, on the remains of his blown-up UFO, swaying, waiting to just fall off.
一开始当透明人是很艰难的,但,算不上,因为随着时间的流逝这越来越艰难了.Purpled什么都感觉不到.他在他原来享受的活动中感觉不到任何东西,甚至说他的狗,也似乎在渐渐地疏远他.他没有照顾自己,有什么必要呢?他配不上食物,他正在家里慢慢的腐化.红蛋帝国来跟他谈杀死Puffy的事是他近几年第一次尝试的东西,但他就是..做不到,做不到杀死唯一一个对他善良的人.他现在已经期待着早日化为虚无了.有史以来第一个失败的雇佣兵.当Quackity来拉拢他时,他们并肩作战,对抗红蛋帝国,他推开了一切,甚至被最好的朋友Hannah背刺时也发誓不再软弱.然后又是那通Las Nevadas的事还有这一大堆复活书什么的,然后Slime又死了而他的剑却血迹斑斑,所有东西似乎被虚无吞并了.几天后,他在这,站在他的UFO那仅存的碎片上,摇晃着,等待着死亡向他伸出双臂.
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Walking on the prime path late at night was not a new thing for Tommyinnit. Being woken up by a nightmare and no longer feeling safe at home due to the disturbing images left behind from his dream made him want to go on a stroll. However, scraps of discarded netherite armor on the ground near church prime was in fact not normal. At first, Tommy was ecstatic, I mean c’mon, free armor! The memory of the events of the Dream SMP brought him back to reality, discarded armor usually only meant a death had taken place. Looking around Tommy saw that after his walking loop he was now near church prime facing towards his house. The largest pile of things was right at the base of the beam left behind from Purpled’s UFO, and with a quick glance up he could just barely see the source
在订阅大道上走夜路对TommyInnit来说是寻常的事了.他被噩梦而惊醒,在家似乎总甩不掉梦中那些阴魂不断的碎片的他没有安全感,于是决定溜达一圈.虽说如此,躺在大道旁的几片下界合金甲却并不怎么常见.一开始,Tommy感到欣喜,免费的盔甲嘛!但在DreamSMP上发生过的事情将他拉回了现实.抛弃的盔甲在这一般只意味着死亡.Tommy四周张望,发现他走的是一个小循环-现在他正位于教堂旁边,面朝着他的房子.最大的那一堆东西躺在Purpled的UFO的那束光源根部,向上瞄一眼,刚好可以看见东西的来源.
Purpled and he used to be real close, truly the best of friends. Unfortunately, there were big things to do and it was all just bad timing, Wilbur finally joined the server and they started L’maburg and then there was the war and dream and- a lot happened. So if Purpled had kind of, slipped to the back of his mind in the midst of everything that would be alright. Purpled was a tough, terrifying kind of guy, with a powerful facade no one could quite get through. He was a damn good fighter, secretly on par with Techno, and could fend for himself. Not to mention the boy was never interested in the fighting like he was, Purpled always put it off as already having had his fair share of combat but never elaborated for them. This small blob on top of a piece of scrap metal, now that was not Purpled, hell it didn’t even look like him at all. Slowly building up to where he was, forgetting the netherite armor where it lay, he could see that this person had grown out blonde hair (like his own), two antennas, an extra set of purple eyes, and a generally weaker frame.
Purpled和他曾经很要好的,真正的最好的朋友.不幸的是,有很多糟糕的事要做,真是卡着点来啊!然后Wilbur加入了服务器所以他们创造了L'manburg,又有那个战争还有Dream还有-发生了很多事情,所以Purpled就有点...被抛在了他的脑后,在那些随着时间会愈合的伤口的中间.Purpled是一个坚强的,有点可怕的家伙,他的外表很强大,似乎没有人能够穿透.他是一个很好的武士,私底下和Techno有一拼,他可以自食其力.那个男孩从未像他一般痴迷于战斗,Purpled总是推迟它,他已经有了足够的战斗份额,但他们从未在这方面详细谈过.这个钢铁片上的纸片人不是Purpled,他们连长得都不像!慢慢的,他往上搭,那套下界合金甲也渐渐地被遗忘.那个人长着和他一样的金色头发,两只触角,两对紫色眼睛和一个比他瘦弱的骨架.
Finally reaching the top and being level with this being, he could see him standing real close to the ledge of the broken UFO, just staring at the ground with this far-off look. Tommy tried, really, to find the words to say but the look he saw in Purpled’s eyes was just too similar to his own in exile it left him shocked. The two actually looked fairly similar now, same hair, height, sunken in the face, and already dead expression. Tommy looked at him the same way he would see himself in the mirror. In his examination of the other, Purpled still hadn’t noticed Tommy and was now only sneaking closer to the edge. At this, Tommy didn’t think and just reached out his hand to grab Purpled’s arm. Purpled’s eyes stayed glaring and the ground unmoving, and unresponsive to Tommy’s hand around his upper arm. They stayed like that for a while, neither moving nor talking until Tommy finally spoke up, startling purpled
终于他到达了顶端.他的海拔从未这么高过.他可以看见Purpled正站在支离破碎的UFO的边缘,用那种-眺望远处的神情盯着地面.Tommy努力地寻找合适的词语.他瞥见了Purpled的眼睛,惊讶的发现他的眼神中所蕴含的东西实在是太像自己被流放时的眼神了!他们现在真的长得蛮像的,一样的头发,身高,脸部有凹陷,全都是扑克脸.Tommy照镜子一般看着Purpled.在Tommy观察另一方时,Purpled还是没有发现Tommy,只是在慢慢的往边缘蹭去.看到这个,Tommy没有想些什么,只是伸出手臂来拉住Purpled的手.Purpled的眼睛仍然停留在陆地上,没有动静,没有对Tommy的手做出任何反应.他们就那样坐着,不动也不讲话,直到Tommy终于开了口,吓了Purpled一大跳.
“Are you, um, are you good?”
"嗯...你还-你还好吗?"
Now Purpled broke his gaze and locked eyes first with Tommy, then back on the ground, before landing on the hand around him. Tommy spoke up once again
Purpled打断了他对地面的凝视,看了Tommy一眼后又从新将眼神转移到了地面上.Tommy又一次开口了.
“Sorry it’s just I noticed your armor below and well, I wanted to take it, but then I didn’t! I wanted to make sure your all good up here is all, you know, mighty long fall down there.”
"对不起,我只是看见了你底下的盔甲就-呃我就是我想拿走它但我没拿啊!我就是想在上头看眼你是不是还好因为你知道的啊-咱距地面蛮远的-"
Tommy cleared his throat to stop his own ramblings and took a deep breath, just wanted any sort of reaction, anything that would give him something to work with here
Tommy清了清嗓子,打断了他自己的那一溜话语,深吸了一口气.他只是想要一个供他参考的反应.
“What are you doing here Tommy?”
"Tommy你在这里干什么?"
Purpled said gruffly, as if he hadn’t heard the whole explanation Tommy had just given that made everything perfectly clear. As Tommy went to reiterate that he was just checking in on his bud Purp man, Purpled added
Purpled有些粗鲁地说,好似他根本没听见Tommy刚给出的一大堆理由.当Tommy解释他只是来康眼他的伙计Purp,Purpled又道,
“You haven’t talked to me for years, don’t show up now and pretend. Please don’t lie to me and say you care, please, let me do what I need to do.”
"几年内你都没有和我交流过了,别冒出来演戏.请不要假装你在意了,求你了,让我做我需要做的事."
The upfrontness of it all startled Tommy, everything was said like he was a divorced Dad who had just finished a 12-hour shift, all except for the ‘please’ which sounded like true pleading. Tommy did nothing but grab Purpled’s other arm, making them face him and pull him into a hug
这所有的直戳重点让Tommy很惊讶,就像是他是个刚轮完12小时班的离婚的父亲,只是那个"求你了"似乎真的是央求.Tommy只是抓住Purpled的另一只手,让他们面对面,将他拥入怀中.
“Let’s go down yeah? We can talk about this down there where it’s safe but we can’t be up this high right now.”
"咱们下去,好吗?我们在下面 安全的地方可以一块聊聊但是我们不能这么高."
Purpled seemingly relaxed at that, but Tommy knew him well enough that this was the calm before the storm, this was him about to get straight pissed and then leave until he’s calm again. In this case, though, the only leave option was the leap to the ground below, a terrifying reality Tommy(译者补充:这里原作者少打了一个m,所以我用不同颜色的笔加上了!) was trying desperately to avoid for Purpled.
听到那,Purpled似乎放松了一些,但Tommy很了解他并且知道这只是暴风雨前的宁静罢了.他一会要直接崩溃崩完之后又平静下来.但在这里,唯一的选择似乎就是跳入虚无,一个Tommy在努力为Purpled回避的事实.
“Fuck off man, just let me go, let me go. “
"走开,放开我吧,放开我,"
Tommy felt Purpled’s hands move in front of his chest between the two trying to create a space, Tommy squeezed tighter
Tommy感觉到Purpled的双手正在试图在他们俩中间创造一个空隙.Tommy挤得更紧了.
“I can’t do this anymore, let me go, it’ll be better there please, it has to be better there it can’t be worse. Let go.”
"我再也做不到这些了,放开我,在那里会更好的!那里会更好因为再没有更糟糕的了!放开."
He started to really fight back at that, punching and shoving at Tommy, too weak for Tommy to let go but strong enough for it to definitely leave bruises. A million thoughts and word combinations ran through Tommy’s head, but none were right, none were as good as just being with Purpled at this moment. He had been here before, looking far off into the eternal way out, and knew first hand the best thing he could do was just be there for Purpled and keep him safe. Purpled disagreed.
他开始真的努力了,对Tommy拳打脚踢,虽说不够让Tommy放开,但足够留下淤青和伤疤.一千万缕思绪和句子从Tommy的脑内飞奔而过,但没有一个是正确的,没有一个比待在Purpled身边更好了.他也曾经站在这里,看着那条通往永恒的道路,并且懂得,他能够做的一切便是当一堵墙陪在Purpled身边,保证他的安全.但Purpled似乎并不同意.
“I killed him. Did you know that? I killed the damn slime, Quackity cared about him and now he’s dead. And Puffy, I tried to kill her, I killed so many fucking people in Hypixel, do you understand that? I’ve done too many bad things to live life as a good person, this is the only solution for me, please don’t take it away.’
"我杀死了他.你知道吗?是我杀死那个Slime,Quackity在意他但他现在死了.还有Puffy,我也试图过杀死她,我在Hypixel上杀死了那么多人,你懂吗?对于成为一个好人来说我已经做了太多坏事了.这是唯一的解决方案,请不要把它从我的身边夺走."
The last sentence came out as more of a sob, a shocking contrast to the anger seeping out early in Purpled’s outburst. The admission shocked both of them, Tommy knew Purpled had a messy history with lives and the, well, taking of them, but not to that extent. And Purpled, mortified at what he said, but the feeling overtaken by the pure emptiness that had taken over him disappearing and years' worth of emotions running back. Tommy took every punch and kick until the exhaustion eventually got to Purpled and he collapsed into Tommy’s arms, now only being held up by the brit.
最后一句话更似一个抽泣.与前面Purpled大发雷霆时的怒火形成了鲜明的对比.他的承认使他们俩都震惊了.Tommy知道Purpled有一段糟糕的历史,掺杂这那些生命,就,Tommy知道Purpled在夺走它们(译者注:指夺走生命),但他却不知有这么多.Purpled,虽对他的话感到很羞耻,但那多年的空虚感在这一刻化为了烟雨,多年的情感似乎在这一刻开始冲洗他.Tommy接受着Purpled的拳打脚踢,直到Purpled终于筋疲力尽地倒在了Tommy的怀里,现在只是被那个英国人环抱着.
Thinking through his options, Tommy chose to scoop up his far too light ex-best friend in his arms who was now falling asleep and bring him back to his home, laying Purpled on his own bed. In the morning this would be dealt with, therapy appointments made, bandages for Tommy’s chest, Tubbo called over, and so much more, but for now, Tommy rolled blanket on the floor next to his own bed, and slept soundly on the floor below Purped.
考虑着他的选项,Tommy选择将他那远远太轻的 现在快睡着了的 前-最好的朋友抱在怀中,扛回了自己的家,安置在自己的床上.他们醒来后这件事将会被处理:Purpled会被给予一个治疗方案,Tommy胸部的伤口会被包扎,Tubbo会把电话打过来等等,但现在,Tommy只是回到了他的毛毯中,并在Purpled身旁的地板上熟睡着.
Notes:
贴士:
Hi! This is my first fanfic so I would love constructive criticism, as I am only recently getting into writing.
哈啰!这是我第一次写同人文,因为我才刚开始写作,所以我会对建设性的建议很感激的.
Anyways thanks so much for reading and I hope you liked it. I only started writing so I could make all the angst no one has written that I want to read :)无论如何,感谢你看完了这篇文文,我希望你很喜欢它.我才刚开始写作所以我写出来的文章可能恰巧全是我想看到的而大家不想看到的焦虑相关文文.
第一种结束!下面是第二种:纯原文!
第二种:纯原文 开始!!!
Summary:
It's hard being the forgotten one on the Dream SMP, maybe that's why Purpled is on top of his exploded UFO staring at the ground below while a past friend tries to get him to come down.
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Purpled Alien boy is not loving life and Tommyinnit is struggling to get him to not jump.
Notes:
Hi! This is my first fanfic so I would love constructive criticism, as I am only recently getting into writing.
TW//
Talk of suicide, suicide attempt (?), mentioned ED (like barely)
(See the end of the work for more notes.)
Work Text:
The view from the top of the UFO was gorgeous. Before all this, the wars, the fighting, the death, this land was a place of refuge, it was their home. They built it with their friends from scratch, a UFO that would stand up tall above the rest of the server and always be there for protection. It was all that the poor alien who had just recently gotten out of Hypixel could ask for, and yet now it stood destroyed, nothing but the last few pieces hanging in the air by the beam of light that now led nowhere.
Up above, the rest of the SMP was more than clear, even though the storm was brewing he could see the exploded pit that was once L’manburg, the country that took his friends away from them. Deep inside of them, they blamed that Wilbur guy for creating that damn country, for making Tommy and Tubbo and everyone else forgets that he was ever there, that he was even human. That was the country that made Dream, his biological brother, lose his mind in needing Tommy. No one knew what Dream’s obsession with the loudmouthed 17-year-old stemmed from, but Purpled had a feeling it was because of him. Because they were the broken one, the one who was taken all those years ago, the damaged goods Dream was meant to love. It’s truly no wonder Dream became obsessed with Tommy as a little brother, he was everything Purpled wasn’t, and Purpled resented Tommy for it.
It was pretty gradual at first, Dream and Punz were so transfixed in watching over L’manburg they assumed Purpled would understand and stop bugging the two, and soon he did. Then slowly his friends ghosted him, stopped coming over, answering his texts, and eventually wouldn’t even spare him a passing glance. Now of course rationally Purpled knew that they were busy, hell governing a country must be tough, but it just made him feel replaceable once again. So he just stopped, stopped trying to be noticed, and took his role as a nobody.
It was hard at first, but then it was nothing and that was worse in every way. Purpled felt nothing, he didn’t see the point in anything he used to enjoy, even his dog seemed to stop caring. They didn’t take care of themselves because why would they, they didn’t deserve food, especially if he was just rotting away in his home anyway. When the eggpire came to him about killing Puffy, it was the first time he had tried at something in years, and he just couldn’t do it, couldn’t kill the only person who had shown him kindness. They expected to fade away forever, now a failed mercenary for the first time ever, when Quackity approached him. He fought against the eggpire with him and pushed past everything not to be weak, even when stabbed by his past friend Hannah. Then there was Las Nevadas and the whole revival book ordeal, and then Slime was dead and their sword was bloody. Everything had gone black and a few days later he was here, on the remains of his blown-up UFO, swaying, waiting to just fall off.
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Walking on the prime path late at night was not a new thing for Tommyinnit. Being woken up by a nightmare and no longer feeling safe at home due to the disturbing images left behind from his dream made him want to go on a stroll. However, scraps of discarded netherite armor on the ground near church prime was in fact not normal. At first, Tommy was ecstatic, I mean c’mon, free armor! The memory of the events of the Dream SMP brought him back to reality, discarded armor usually only meant a death had taken place. Looking around Tommy saw that after his walking loop he was now near church prime facing towards his house. The largest pile of things was right at the base of the beam left behind from Purpled’s UFO, and with a quick glance up he could just barely see the source
Purpled and he used to be real close, truly the best of friends. Unfortunately, there were big things to do and it was all just bad timing, Wilbur finally joined the server and they started L’maburg and then there was the war and dream and- a lot happened. So if Purpled had kind of, slipped to the back of his mind in the midst of everything that would be alright. Purpled was a tough, terrifying kind of guy, with a powerful facade no one could quite get through. He was a damn good fighter, secretly on par with Techno, and could fend for himself. Not to mention the boy was never interested in the fighting like he was, Purpled always put it off as already having had his fair share of combat but never elaborated for them. This small blob on top of a piece of scrap metal, now that was not Purpled, hell it didn’t even look like him at all. Slowly building up to where he was, forgetting the netherite armor where it lay, he could see that this person had grown out blonde hair (like his own), two antennas, an extra set of purple eyes, and a generally weaker frame.
Finally reaching the top and being level with this being, he could see him standing real close to the ledge of the broken UFO, just staring at the ground with this far-off look. Tommy tried, really, to find the words to say but the look he saw in Purpled’s eyes was just too similar to his own in exile it left him shocked. The two actually looked fairly similar now, same hair, height, sunken in the face, and already dead expression. Tommy looked at him the same way he would see himself in the mirror. In his examination of the other, Purpled still hadn’t noticed Tommy and was now only sneaking closer to the edge. At this, Tommy didn’t think and just reached out his hand to grab Purpled’s arm. Purpled’s eyes stayed glaring and the ground unmoving, and unresponsive to Tommy’s hand around his upper arm. They stayed like that for a while, neither moving nor talking until Tommy finally spoke up, startling purpled
“Are you, um, are you good?”
Now Purpled broke his gaze and locked eyes first with Tommy, then back on the ground, before landing on the hand around him. Tommy spoke up once again
“Sorry it’s just I noticed your armor below and well, I wanted to take it, but then I didn’t! I wanted to make sure your all good up here is all, you know, mighty long fall down there.”
Tommy cleared his throat to stop his own ramblings and took a deep breath, just wanted any sort of reaction, anything that would give him something to work with here
“What are you doing here Tommy?”
Purpled said gruffly, as if he hadn’t heard the whole explanation Tommy had just given that made everything perfectly clear. As Tommy went to reiterate that he was just checking in on his bud Purp man, Purpled added
“You haven’t talked to me for years, don’t show up now and pretend. Please don’t lie to me and say you care, please, let me do what I need to do.”
The upfrontness of it all startled Tommy, everything was said like he was a divorced Dad who had just finished a 12-hour shift, all except for the ‘please’ which sounded like true pleading. Tommy did nothing but grab Purpled’s other arm, making them face him and pull him into a hug.
“Let’s go down yeah? We can talk about this down there where it’s safe but we can’t be up this high right now.”
Purpled seemingly relaxed at that, but Tommy knew him well enough that this was the calm before the storm, this was him about to get straight pissed and then leave until he’s calm again. In this case, though, the only leave option was the leap to the ground below, a terrifying reality Tomy was trying desperately to avoid for Purpled.
“Fuck off man, just let me go, let me go. “
Tommy felt Purpled’s hands move in front of his chest between the two trying to create a space, Tommy squeezed tighter
“I can’t do this anymore, let me go, it’ll be better there please, it has to be better there it can’t be worse. Let go.”
He started to really fight back at that, punching and shoving at Tommy, too weak for Tommy to let go but strong enough for it to definitely leave bruises. A million thoughts and word combinations ran through Tomm’s head, but none were right, none were as good as just being with Purpled at this moment. He had been here before, looking far off into the eternal way out, and knew first hand the best thing he could do was just be there for Purpled and keep him safe. Purpled disagreed.
“I killed him. Did you know that? I killed the damn slime, Quackity cared about him and now he’s dead. And Puffy, I tried to kill her, I killed so many fucking people in Hypixel, do you understand that? I’ve done too many bad things to live life as a good person, this is the only solution for me, please don’t take it away.’
The last sentence came out as more of a sob, a shocking contrast to the anger seeping out early in Purpled’s outburst. The admission shocked both of them, Tommy knew Purpled had a messy history with lives and the, well, taking of them, but not to that extent. And Purpled, mortified at what he said, but the feeling overtaken by the pure emptiness that had taken over him disappearing and years' worth of emotions running back. Tommy took every punch and kick until the exhaustion eventually got to Purpled and he collapsed into Tommy’s arms, now only being held up by the brit.
Thinking through his options, Tommy chose to scoop up his far too light ex-best friend in his arms who was now falling asleep and bring him back to his home, laying Purpled on his own bed. In the morning this would be dealt with, therapy appointments made, bandages for Tommy’s chest, Tubbo called over, and so much more, but for now, Tommy rolled blanket on the floor next to his own bed, and slept soundly on the floor below Purped.
Notes:
Hi! This is my first fanfic so I would love constructive criticism, as I am only recently getting into writing.
Anyways thanks so much for reading and I hope you liked it. I only started writing so I could make all the angst no one has written that I want to read :)
第二种 纯原文结束!下面是第三种:纯翻译!
第三种:纯翻译上线~
在DreamSMP上扮演那个被遗忘的人真的不是什么好差事,也许这就是Purpled正站在他不久前被炸的UFO上向遥远的地面眺望,他曾经的朋友正在努力地劝说他的原因吧.
换种说法就是
外星男孩Purpled不怎么想继续生活了,而Tommyinnit正在努力地劝阻他 不要跳.
贴士:
嗨!这是我写的第一个同人文,因为我刚开始写作所以我会很感谢建设性的建议的!
TW//{科普:TW的意思是(翻译自Edge浏览器给出的英译)
一个出现在文章,视频等等 开头部分的一个声明,警告读者或观众们这个视频/文章中包含潜在的悲伤素材(一般在视频/文章简介中出现)}
会有提到自杀,包含试图自杀的场景(?),提到了ED(但只是稍微提到
{ED我查了一下网上好像没有解释 估计代表着Emotional damage,就是情感上的伤害,抑郁这一类的}
(查看更多贴士请看文章结尾部)
UFO上的景色秀色可餐.在这发生之前,这些战争,战役,死亡之前,这里曾是一个慰藉,这里是他们的家园.是他和朋友们从0搭起的,是一个会屹立在全服务器之上的,是一个永远不变的,永远保护着他们的UFO.这里是那个刚从Hypixel回来的外星人所要求的一切,而现在它被摧毁了,最后的碎片被那束现在通往虚无的光弱弱地悬挂着.
在高处,SMP的风景即使透过这场即将降临的雷雨也显得愈发清晰.他可以看见那个曾经代表着L'manburg的深坑,那个把他的朋友们从他身边夺走的国家.在他的内心深处,他因为那个叫Wilbur的人建立了这个该死的国家而憎恨他,因为他让Tommy和Tubbo和所有人看着他留下的所有痕迹被历史的潮流一一卷走,让他们忘记他曾经在世界上生活过,忘记他曾经是人类.那个国家让Dream,他的血缘兄弟因为需要Tommy而疯疯癫癫.没有人知道为什么Dream对那个吵吵嚷嚷的17岁小屁孩如此固执,但Purpled有种感觉那是因为他.因为他们是支离破碎的那一方,他们是被调走的,那些Dream本来能够爱的,应该爱的...其实Dream对Tommy如同大哥哥般的固执的原因是显而易见的,他有着Purpled没有的一切,而Purpled也因此憎恨Tommy
发展过程一开始是缓慢的.Dream和Punz需要监视L'manburg,所以他们默认Purpled会理解他们,会停止天天来骚扰他们,Purpled很快照办了.然后就是他的朋友们,他们落下了他,不再过来玩,不再回他的信息,渐渐地就连看都不看他一眼了.Purpled理智的那一半肯定知道,那是因为他们很忙.管理一个国家一定很困难的.但这还是让他感觉自己是可替代的,所以他停下来了,不再尝试索取关注,默默地做一个透明人.
一开始当透明人是很艰难的,但,算不上,因为随着时间的流逝这越来越艰难了.Purpled什么都感觉不到.他在他原来享受的活动中感觉不到任何东西,甚至说他的狗,也似乎在渐渐地疏远他.他没有照顾自己,有什么必要呢?他配不上食物,他正在家里慢慢的腐化.红蛋帝国来跟他谈杀死Puffy的事是他近几年第一次尝试的东西,但他就是..做不到,做不到杀死唯一一个对他善良的人.他现在已经期待着早日化为虚无了.有史以来第一个失败的雇佣兵.当Quackity来拉拢他时,他们并肩作战,对抗红蛋帝国,他推开了一切,甚至被最好的朋友Hannah背刺时也发誓不再软弱.然后又是那通Las Nevadas的事还有这一大堆复活书什么的,然后Slime又死了而他的剑却血迹斑斑,所有东西似乎被虚无吞并了.几天后,他在这,站在他的UFO那仅存的碎片上,摇晃着,等待着死亡向他伸出双臂.
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在订阅大道上走夜路对TommyInnit来说是寻常的事了.他被噩梦惊醒,在家似乎总甩不掉梦中那些阴魂不断的碎片的他没有安全感,于是决定溜达一圈.虽说如此,躺在大道旁的几片下界合金甲却并不怎么常见.一开始,Tommy感到欣喜,免费的盔甲嘛!但在DreamSMP上发生过的事情将他拉回了现实.抛弃的盔甲在这一般只意味着死亡.Tommy四周张望,发现他走的是一个小循环-现在他正位于教堂旁边,面朝着他的房子.最大的那一堆东西躺在Purpled的UFO的那束光源根部,向上瞄一眼,刚好可以看见东西的来源.
Purpled和他曾经很要好的,真正的最好的朋友.不幸的是,有很多糟糕的事要做,真是卡着点来啊!然后Wilbur加入了服务器所以他们创造了L'manburg,又有那场战争还有Dream还有-发生了很多事情,所以Purpled就有点...被抛在了他的脑后,在那些随着时间会愈合的伤口的中间.Purpled是一个坚强的,有点可怕的家伙,他的外表很强大,似乎没有人能够穿透.他是一个很好的武士,私底下和Techno有一拼,他可以自食其力.那个男孩从未像他一般痴迷于战斗,Purpled总是推迟它,他已经有了足够的战斗份额,但他们从未在这方面详细谈过.这个钢铁片上的纸片人不是Purpled,他们连长得都不像!慢慢的,他往上搭,那套下界合金甲也渐渐地被遗忘.那个人长着和他一样的金色头发,两只触角,两对紫色眼睛和一个比他瘦弱的骨架.
终于他到达了顶端.他的海拔从未这么高过.他可以看见Purpled正站在支离破碎的UFO的边缘,用那种-眺望远处的神情盯着地面.Tommy努力地寻找合适的词语.他瞥见了Purpled的眼睛,惊讶的发现他的眼神中所蕴含的东西实在是太像自己被流放时的眼神了!他们现在真的长得蛮像的,一样的头发,身高,脸部有凹陷,全都是扑克脸.Tommy照镜子一般看着Purpled.在Tommy观察另一方时,Purpled还是没有发现Tommy,只是在慢慢的往边缘蹭去.看到这个,Tommy没有想些什么,只是伸出手臂来拉住Purpled的手.Purpled的眼睛仍然停留在陆地上,没有动静,没有对Tommy的手做出任何反应.他们就那样坐着,不动也不讲话,直到Tommy终于开了口,吓了Purpled一大跳.
"嗯...你还-你还好吗?"
Purpled打断了他对地面的凝视,看了Tommy一眼后又重新将眼神转移到了地面上.Tommy又一次开口了.
"对不起,我只是看见了你底下的盔甲就-呃我就是我想拿走它但我没拿啊!我就是想在上头看眼你是不是还好因为你知道的啊-咱距地面蛮远的-"
Tommy清了清嗓子,打断了他自己的那一溜话语,深吸了一口气.他只是想要一个供他参考的反应.
"Tommy你在这里干什么?"
Purpled有些粗鲁地说,好似他根本没听见Tommy刚给出的一大堆理由.当Tommy解释他只是来康眼他的伙计Purp,Purpled又道,
"几年内你都没有和我交流过了,别冒出来演戏.请不要假装你在意了,求你了,让我做我需要做的事."
这所有的直戳重点让Tommy很惊讶,就像是他是个刚轮完12小时班的离婚的父亲,只是那个"求你了"似乎真的是央求.Tommy只是抓住Purpled的另一只手,让他们面对面,将他拥入怀中.
"咱们下去,好吗?我们在下面 安全的地方可以一块聊聊但是我们不能这么高."
听到那,Purpled似乎放松了一些,但Tommy很了解他并且知道这只是暴风雨前的宁静罢了.他一会要直接崩溃崩完之后又平静下来.但在这里,唯一的选择似乎就是跳入虚无,一个Tommy在努力为Purpled回避的事实.
"走开,放开我吧,放开我,"
Tommy感觉到Purpled的双手正在试图在他们俩中间创造一个空隙.Tommy挤得更紧了.
"我再也做不到这些了,放开我,在那里会更好的!那里会更好因为再没有更糟糕的了!放开."
他开始真的努力了,对Tommy拳打脚踢,虽说不够让Tommy放开,但足够留下淤青和伤疤.一千万缕思绪和句子从Tommy的脑内飞奔而过,但没有一个是正确的,没有一个比待在Purpled身边更好了.他也曾经站在这里,看着那条通往永恒的道路,并且懂得,他能够做的一切便是当一堵墙陪在Purpled身边,保证他的安全.但Purpled似乎并不同意.
"我杀死了他.你知道吗?是我杀死那个Slime,Quackity在意他但他现在死了.还有Puffy,我也试图过杀死她,我在Hypixel上杀死了那么多人,你懂吗?对于成为一个好人来说我已经做了太多坏事了.这是唯一的解决方案,请不要把它从我的身边夺走."
最后一句话更似一个抽泣.与前面Purpled大发雷霆时的怒火形成了鲜明的对比.他的承认使他们俩都震惊了.Tommy知道Purpled有一段糟糕的历史,掺杂这那些生命,就,Tommy知道Purpled在夺走它们(译者注:指夺走生命),但他却不知有这么多.Purpled,虽对他的话感到很羞耻,但那多年的空虚感在这一刻化为了烟雨,多年的情感似乎在这一刻开始冲洗他.Tommy接受着Purpled的拳打脚踢,直到Purpled终于筋疲力尽地倒在了Tommy的怀里,现在只是被那个英国人环抱着.
考虑着他的选项,Tommy选择将他那远远太轻的 现在快睡着了的 前-最好的朋友抱在怀中,扛回了自己的家,安置在自己的床上.他们醒来后这件事将会被处理:Purpled会被给予一个治疗方案,Tommy胸部的伤口会被包扎,Tubbo会把电话打过来等等,但现在,Tommy只是回到了他的毛毯中,并在Purpled身旁的地板上熟睡着.
贴士:
哈啰!这是我第一次写同人文,因为我才刚开始写作,所以我会对建设性的建议很感激的.
无论如何,感谢你看完了这篇文文,我希望你很喜欢它.我才刚开始写作所以我写出来的文章可能恰巧全是我想看到的而大家不想看到的焦虑相关文文.
纯翻译就此结束~
非常感谢你能看到最后!如果翻译有错误,欢迎在评论区指出啊<3
