What would I live for if not love 如果不是爱，我要为何而活

I used to say:

我常说

Love is the only thing worth living for

爱是唯一值得追求的

But it occurred to me this morning

但今早我突然想到

that there is always a possibility

永远都存在一种可能

in the entirety of a lifetime

即便耗费我的一生

for me to be unable to find love

我也无法找到爱

You know how life can be

你应该也见识到过

when the odds are against you

什么是命运的捉弄

Love

爱

in the best of my conjecture

在我最好的构想中

should be so pure

应该是如此得纯粹

that the thought of it motivated me

以至于它激励了我

to paddle through an ocean

划着小浆

of hardships and nightmares

渡过了艰难与梦魇的海洋

So, the very moment the idea sank in

于是，这个想法沉入心底的那一刻

was the moment my soul

也是我的灵魂

at the same time

同时

drowned and floated

沉没又浮起的那一刻

because of which

因此

despite my morning fatigue

我拖着疲乏的身躯

I got out of bed

早早地起床

and got into doing things

开始做事情

the guitar, teaching materials, my long-conceived book, and retrospection into the past

吉他，教学材料，我构思了许久的书，以及对过去的回顾

A past lived in fear

那是一个浸淫于恐惧中的过去

a past always in pursuit

一个一直在追逐的过去

a span of never wholesome

一段永远都不健全的时光

and a journey

一份旅途

in the search

在搜寻

on the run

在奔忙

and so gruesome

笼罩于死亡 

What if I don’t get it?

如果我得不到呢？

No matter what

无论如何

life moves on

生活会继续

And maybe

也许

maybe I could decide

也许我能够

not now

不是现在

but on that path of uncertainties

而是走在那条不确定的道路上时，再做决定

where I can finally

我也终于能够

call myself an adventurer

把自己称为一名冒险者

See?

你看

Through this wilderness of sadness

只要穿过这片悲伤的荒野

curtains of new stages will be lifted

通往新舞台的幕布将被揭开

Nothing in the world changed

这世上的什么都没变

Yet

但

through a new you

当它们穿过一个崭新的你

everything becomes different

一切又都不再寻常