英文灌水日记190602
In view of my talent for music, a lot of friends wonder why I give up the opportunity to enter conservatory of music, and choose Law School of NJU instead. Although I have ever done some research in social sciences, I am completely ignorant of law. To me, Learning law from scratch means giving up my superiority for something I am bad at, it is a total waste of time and efforts, a non-optimal allocation of resources. As I am already 35 years old and not a little boy any more, I must end my student career and seek a livelihood through acquired skills as soon as possible. If I always switch between different subjects, I will be a good-for-nothing for a lifetime.
因为我在音乐上的天赋，有很多朋友奇怪为什么我不进音乐学院，而选择南大的法学院。虽然我在社会科学上有一定的研究，但是对于法律我一窍不通。从头开始学法律对我来说意味着放弃我的优势而从事某些自己不擅长的东西，那完全是浪费时间和精力，使资源达不到最优配置。作为一个35岁不再是小孩子的人来说，我必须尽快结束我的学生生涯用学到的技能把饭碗端稳。如果总是在不同的学科之间来回切换，我一辈子都不可能有什么出息。
It is no doubt that I am a music genius. I began my piano career at 20 from scratch, only within 6 months I was matriculated at Nanjing Art Institute (NAI for short), within 2 years I could play Chopin’s music, no more than 3 years I was competent to most of Liszt’s piano works. After graduation from my college, I tried to compose music myself without any teacher, till now I am already the author of more than one hundred classical pieces. My pieces of music are well received by most of my friends and relatives, even those professionals showed their interest when I posted a part of them on a foreign forum. If I go a step further to receive professional training, I am sure to be a world-class musician, standing on the top of the world looking down at everybody arrogantly, dwarfing every master-hand no matter how excellent they are. But despite all that, I am reluctant to enter conservatory of music.
毫无疑问我是个音乐天才，我20岁零基础开始学琴，仅仅用六个月就考上了南艺，两年之内我就能弹肖邦，用不了三年我就能胜任李斯特的绝大多数钢琴作品。从南艺毕业以后我就尝试着在没有老师的情况下自己作曲，到目前为止我已经是一百多首古典音乐的作者。我的音乐作品在亲戚朋友中间广受欢迎，甚至当我把它们中的一部分发表在国外的论坛里面那些专业人士都对我深感兴趣。如果我往前迈一步接受专业训练，我一定会成为一个世界级的音乐家，站在世界的顶端傲然俯视着芸芸众生，让所有高手都对我甘拜下风，不管他们有多出色。尽管如此，我还是不想进音乐学院。
It is well known that music is a cash-burning industry. As long as you step into it, whatever you do need to spend money. If you just learn it for fun, or as an amateur, you just depend on it as a means to cultivate your mind, you can archive your goal with very limited money. You can choose a relatively inexpensive training center and a responsible teacher to learn skill and find fun in it. But if you seek a professional career, music will be a black hole sucking endless money from you: it needs money to find a senior teacher, to rent a piano room, to buy instruments, to pay tuition at college, even to bribe teacher in the conservatory.
众所周知音乐是一个烧钱的行当。只要你一脚迈进去，你做什么都离不开钱。如果你仅仅是学的好玩，或者业余拿它当作陶冶情操的工具，你只需要花有限的金钱就能达到自己的目的。你可以选择一个相对便宜的培训中心和一个负责任的老师来教你并使你在其中得到乐趣。但是如果你想走专业的路，音乐就好比一个黑洞把你的钱源源不断地吸进去：找个资深的老师要钱、租琴房要钱、买乐器要钱、上大学交学费要钱、甚至贿赂音乐学院的老师也要钱。
Take piano course for an instance. It takes 200 yuan per hour to learn skill from a student in music conservatory, 300 yuan to learn from a lecturer in music collage, 600 yuan from an associate professor, 800 yuan from a professor. Generally, you can’t build Rome in a day, you must spend *************** of handsome money to extract skills from your teacher. To learn authentic technique, not a few of my classmates went so far as to pay thousands yuan to invite a virtuoso to give directions within an hour. Further more, to have insurance for themselves to be matriculated at NAI, most of students bribe examiners in a disguised form, they served as apprentices to them a year ahead of the entrance examination, use tuition as a way to bribe their teacher. Sometimes you are suggested by your teacher: your instrument is not good, I advice you to buy a new one in an appointed music company, you just tell the seller I introduced you, in this way your teacher gets kickbacks from it. When you get them ‘fed’, there will be a very good chance that you succeed in the entrance examination and are admitted by the music school.
就拿钢琴课来说吧。如果你想从一个音乐学院的学生那里学习技能你需要花每小时两百元的课时费，音乐学院的讲师则收取每小时三百元，副教授六百元，正教授八百元。通常罗马不是一天建成的，你需要花好几年和数以年记的可观金钱才能从老师身上套取足够的技能和知识。为了学到真本事，我们班上的很多同学甚至花数千块钱去找大师指点迷津。更有甚者，一些人为了让他们被南艺录取打包票，他们变相地贿赂考官，他们通常会在离考试不到一年的时间里拜在考官的门下，用课时费这种方式贿赂他们。有时候老师会建议你：你的乐器不行，我推荐你到某个指定的琴行去买一件新乐器，你只需要告诉他我介绍你来的就行了，这样老师就能从中抽取回扣。当你充分“喂饱”了他们，你就有很大的可能性在入学考试当中名列前茅并被音乐学院录取。
As I was totally ignorant of it from the beginning, I suffered terribly from those sanctimonious teachers even if NAI admitted me. My life faith is to get everything OK by my wits and ability and I never acted as a opportunist. In my world view, it is only when a person with no skills that he acts as an opportunist. Therefore I never bribe anyone, and I have no idea of what ‘bribe philosophy’ is. As I am an exception among most of my schoolmates offering bribes to teachers, I was treated differently from them by the head teacher. It pains me that good luck seemed to be wholly denied to me and everyone looked coldly upon me. Even so I insisted on my principle: do everything with my real learning, as long as I am a piece of gold, I will shine no matter what situation is. Yet frustratingly, till I left school, I was never seriously considered.
因为刚开始我对这种东西一无所知，所以尽管我被南艺录取了，我还是在那些道貌岸然的老师那里吃尽了苦头。我的人生信条是做什么事都凭自己的真本事，我从来都不会投机取巧。在我的世界观里，只有那种没本事的人才会投机取巧。所以我从来不贿赂任何人，我对于“贿赂的哲学”一点概念都没有。当学校里面除了我之外的绝大部分同学都贿赂老师时，我被班主任区别对待了。让我痛苦的是所有好机会都与我无缘，所有人都对我冷眼相看。尽管如此我还是坚持着我的原则：用自己的真本事把所有事都搞定，只要我是块金子不管到哪里都会发光。但是令人沮丧的是，直到我离校都没有得到任何人的重用。
Needless to say, I was born to a relatively well-off family. My father is a professor in Nanjing Forestry University. He can afford me a professional music education. In spite of this, I am unwilling to receive it. For one thing, as I don’t have a job, my parents have to handle day-to-day finances of our family, if they are relied on to pay my tuition, it will be a heavy burden to them. Anyway, I will be jobless for many years to come and their money is mine after all, if I spend it lavishly, I will end up in a condition that I have no other choice but to give up my occupation and seek odd jobs outside. For another, I have a strong self-learning ability. I make rapid progress even without a teacher giving directions on my music composition. It benefits from the tough learning condition in my early years. When I was very young, I was eager to learn everything new but couldn’t find myself an appropriate teacher, to adapt the situation of the day, I could not but develop a super-strong ability to learn knowledge by myself. So, I don’t need to rely on anyone to give me instructions. Further more, as I have a special feeling towards music, it is unnecessary for me to do anything but follow my inspiration.
不必说的是，我出生在一个相对富裕的家庭。我爸爸是南林大的教授，他的经济实力能够支撑我完成音乐上的学业。尽管如此，我还是不愿意接受专业音乐教育。一方面因为我没有工作，我的父母不得不负担起家庭的日常开销，如果我把音乐上的学费也赖在他们身上，那无疑对他们是一笔不小的负担。不管怎么说，我在未来很长一段时间都不会有工作，他们的钱毕竟也是我的钱，如果我就这样挥霍掉，最终我不得不沦落到一种境地：放弃自己正在从事的事业到外面去打零工挣钱。另一方面我有很强的自学能力，即便没有老师指点我作曲我也能进展神速，这得益于我早年艰苦的学习条件，记得那还是我小时候，我渴望学习一切新东西却苦于找不到一个合适的老师，为了适应当时的状况我只能发展出超强的自学能力，所以我不必靠任何人给我指引。除此之外我对音乐有一种独特的感觉，我除了跟着感觉走以外不必做任何事情。
Since I was admitted into law school in 2018, the third semester is drawing to an end. I have already let each of my classmates know my talent. It spends me 2400 yuan per year here for tuition, a really good bargain! If it is a well-known conservatory of music, it at least cost me 20 thousand yuan a year! Considering that I am short of nothing, my only need is to integrate into the society and contact with different kind of people, I am like a duck takes to the water now. Here, there is no one envying me, no one trying to overshadow me to get to the top, everyone is on my side. Without a great deal of money, I can achieve my goal at a minimum cost. I believe without a few more years, I can achieve what I want and become a virtuoso significantly higher than those trained professionally for years.
从我2018年进入南大法学院算起，目前第三学期已经接近尾声，我已经让同班的所有同学见识了我的能力。这里的学费只要2400元一年，多便宜啊！如果是一所知名音乐院校的话至少得一年两万！鉴于我什么都不缺，我唯一的需求是融入社会跟不同的人接触，我现在过得如鱼得水。在这里没有人嫉妒我，也没有人踩着我往上爬，所有人都站在我这一边。这样不耗费太多的钱，我就能以最小的代价达到目的，我相信用不了几年，我就能得到自己想要的东西，成为一个远远高于那些受专业训练很多年之人的音乐大师。
That is my current situation.
这就是我的现状。
