Raphaël Melki的最终声明

很抱歉直到刚刚我才发现了这条3个月前的消息。可能各位有些甚至不认识他，但他也是盛极一时的波兰球动画师，我觉得很有必要让他的中国粉丝知道（即使不多），至今我也没有发现有哪位up发过相关信息，所以决定发下，以下为译制后的原文：

大家好。

我终于决定发表一篇关于这里发生的事情的最新报道。我很抱歉，但在这篇文章的结尾，你可能会感到失望，也许会生气，坦率地说，我会理解的。但无论如何，我想借此机会解释几件事。

2015年以来，我一直是波兰球迷，这意味着我生活的很大一部分都受到了波兰球的影响。我在那里遇到了无数人，我甚至一度在社区里找到了不止一个朋友。我花了数月甚至数年时间在越来越大的项目上工作，每次都试图在reddit和Youtube上超越自己。每一部新作品都受到了越来越多观众的好评，每次都促使我努力做得更好，因为我不想让人失望。它成功了，每一个新项目都比前一个项目花费了我更多的时间，每次都给我带来更多的自豪感。与此同时，我的学术生涯正在腾飞，让我更接近我真正想做的事情。在这段时间里，我一直努力在我的学习和我的粉丝圈活动之间保持健康的平衡。

但后来发生了几件事，开始破坏我制作内容的初衷。第一，法国近代史。我知道我自己，在一个大项目之后，我想加倍努力。但我遇到了一个新问题：还有什么可做的？我可以尝试做些什么来让我的作品“新鲜”并再次吸引人？我能找到的唯一答案是“做更大的事情”。但比我花了一年时间完成的视频更大，工作了无数小时，而我的日常工作量却越来越重？我根本做不到。因为其次，也许更重要的是，波兰球媒体已经失去了对我的吸引力。我花了太多时间一次又一次地画相同的圆圈，开始感觉我陷入了死胡同。去年 12 月，我想我会想再试一次，为另一个油管博主做一个小的波兰球项目。但我根本做不到，我已经失去了动力。曾经对超越自己的强烈渴望变成了单纯的机械动作，没有任何激情。这不是我想做的，它让我陷入了深深的怀疑之中。碰巧也是在我面临更多个人问题的时候，这让我意识到忠于自己的重要性，而不是欺骗你相信一切都很好，而显然事实并非如此。

我开始涉足其他领域，发现了其他一些新奇感没有被磨灭的领域。我也继续追求我的学业，我为自己的成就感到自豪，为我现在的处境感到自豪。我找到越来越少的理由回到波兰球迷的行列。

几天前，我正在清理reddit账户上的灰尘，阅读3年、4年、5年前的信息。这一次对我来说是多么陌生。我意识到我已经不是原来的那个人了，不管是好是坏，我都不想回来了。这段时间是我一生中最重要的一段时间，它帮助我成为了今天的我，但如果我不想继续前进，我怎么能努力长大呢？我已经离开了，这条信息是我向你们解释它的一种方式。

我不会再创作波兰球动画了。我自己花了很长时间才接受，我知道你们中的一些人也很难接受。你仍然可以看到Youtube上还保留着我的遗产，请随意重播，我已经隐藏了太多复活节彩蛋，你不会很快就把内容用完的！但现在，我觉得有必要说再见。每一个新的开始都来自另一个开始的结束。

感谢我的所有订阅者，不论是从一开始就在这里的订阅者还是在我的最新视频之后发现我的订阅者。你们让我成长，你们在我需要的时候给我支持。我欠你们这个解释，我希望现在情况更清楚了。您仍然可以在下面提出问题，如果我觉得合适，我会回答。

我希望这篇文章对我来说将是一个新的曙光。

干杯,

拉斐尔·梅尔基

原文

Hello everyone.

I have finally decided to publish an update on what's happening here. I am sorry, but by the end of this reading, you may feel disappointed, maybe angry, and frankly, I'd understand it. But I would like to take this opportunity to explain a few things anyway.

I have been in the Polandball fandom since 2015, which means a significant part of my life has been impacted by it. I have met countless people there, I may even have found more than friends in the community, at one point. I have spent months and years working on larger and larger projects, trying to outperform myself each time, on reddit and then on Youtube. Each new work was acclaimed by an ever larger audience, pushing me to try and do better each time, because I didn't want to disappoint. And it worked, each new projet taking me more time than the former, and bringing me more pride each time. At the same time, my academic career was taking off, bringing me closer to what I really want to do in my life. I have managed, during all this time, to keep a healthy balance between my studies and my activity in the fandom.

But then, several things happened that started to undermine the very reasons I was producing content. First, the Modern History of France. I know myself, after a big project, I want to double down. But I was met with a new question: what is there left to do? What can I try to do for my work to be "fresh" and appealing again? And the only answer I could find was "do something bigger". But bigger than a video that took me a literal year to finish, with countless hours of work, while my regular workload kept on getting heavier? I simply couldn't. Because secondly, and maybe more importantly, the Polandball medium has lost its appeal to me. I have spent too much time drawing the same circles again and again, and it started feeling like I was in a dead-end. Last December, I thought I would want to try again, do a small Polandball project for another Youtuber. But I simply couldn't, motivation had left me. What once a strong desire to outperform myself turned into mere mechanical movements, devoid of any passion. This was not what I wanted to do, and it threw me in a deep time of doubt. It so happened that it was also during a time when I was faced with more personal issues that made me realize the importance of being true to yourself instead of tricking you into believeing everything is fine when it is clearly not.

I started dabbling into other stuff, discovered other fandoms where the feeling of novelty was not worn out. I also continued to pursue my studies and I am proud of what I have become, of where I am right now. And I found fewer and fewer reasons to come back to the Polandball fandom.

A few days ago, I was scraping off the dust of my reddit account and read messages from 3, 4, 5 years ago. It struck me how foreign this time had become to me. I realized that I was not the same person anymore, and for the better or the worse, that I didn't want to come back. This time remains as one of the most significant in my whole life, it helped me becoming who I am today, but how can I try to grow up if I don't want to move on? I have moved on, and this message is a way for me to explain it to you.

I will not create Polandball animations anymore. It took me time to accept it myself, and I know that it will be difficult for some of you to accept it as well. You still have my legacy here on Youtube, rewatch everything as you please, I have hidden so many easter eggs that you won't run out of content before long! But for the moment, I feel obliged to say goodbye. Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Thank you to all my subscribers, from those who here here since the very beginning to those who discovered me after my latest video. You have allowed me to grow up, and you have provided me support whenever I needed it. I owed you this explanation, I hope the situation's clearer now. You can still ask questions below, I will answer if I find them appropriate. 

I hope this post will be a new dawn for me.

Cheers,

Raphaël Melki

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