230520 当我感到疲倦时，如何找到追求所爱的能量

How I find energy to do what I love

When I’m tired (+ a personal/home update)

Video Information:

In this video I wanted to chat about expectations related to “being productive” - how we shouldn’t shame ourselves for ‘not getting things done’ after a long work day or when we are going through challenging times. I also wanted to share some techniques that have helped me change my lifestyle a bit and pull away from habitual distractions in order to pursue some of my personal hobbies and passions. Maybe these ideas will help, and maybe they wont! We are each trying to figure things out in the midst of stress and burnout. It’s a personal journey, and I hope at least I can encourage you today and give you some peaceful moments.

在这个视频中，我想讨论与“高效工作”相关的期望 - 我们不应该在长时间工作或经历困难时为“未完成任务”感到羞耻。我还想分享一些帮助我改变生活方式并远离习惯性分心的技巧，以追求一些个人的爱好和激情。也许这些想法会有所帮助，也可能不会！在压力和疲劳中，我们每个人都在努力摸索。这是一段个人的旅程，我希望至少今天能鼓励你并给你一些宁静的时刻。

The fields of balsam root and Lupine are in full bloom, and the wind smells of lilac. I was working the entire day at my shop, doing all sorts of tedious work activities. That has the sunset. I use the last bit of energy reserves I had to go and see the wild Meadows in their full Glory. All they did was wander about for a bit and pick some flowers, but when I finally left due to a rainstorm, I felt that today had great value. I was so happy to have made the effort to go witness the springtime at its most abundant.

野生的金鸡菊和羽扇豆在盛开，风里弥漫着丁香花的香气。我整天都在我的店里工作，做各种繁琐的工作。太阳落山了。我用我最后一点精力去看野生的草地在它们的全盛时期。他们只是到处漫游了一会儿，摘了一些花，但当我因为一场暴风雨离开时，我觉得今天的价值很大。我很高兴自己付出了努力去目睹春天的最丰富时光。

This decision got me thinking about how hard it can be after a long workday to find time to do what you love or find the motivation for that matter. When it's just so much easier to perpetually put off goals and passions for Another Day That Never Comes. Maybe we spend a lot of time watching TV or on our phones, and while there's nothing wrong with this, I know it can be troublesome when we actually want to do something different with our time and just feel too burned out to do so.

这个决定让我想到，在长时间工作后，要找到时间做自己喜欢的事情或找到动力是多么困难。当我们总是更容易将目标和激情永远拖延到“未来的某一天”时，情况可能会变得更加困难。也许我们花很多时间看电视或使用手机，虽然这没有错，但我知道当我们真正想用时间做一些不同的事情，却感到筋疲力尽时，这可能会带来麻烦。

"Come on," I thought. I would share a few things that have helped me. But firstly, I must say that it is a perfectly good thing to rest and do nothing productive with your time off. We don't need to produce anything to show that we used our time well, and we all need to allow ourselves quality rest that helps us feel better the next day. We might sometimes feel shame for taking time just to have fun, take a nap, or simply waste time by other standards. I think it's so important to know we have inner value. We don't need to prove it; we can just be.

“来吧”，我想。我将分享一些对我有帮助的事情。但首先，我必须说，休息并且不用时间做任何有生产性的事情是一件非常好的事情。我们不需要制造任何东西来证明我们合理利用了时间，我们都需要让自己有质量的休息，以帮助我们第二天感觉更好。有时候，我们可能因为花时间玩得开心、小睡一会，或者根据其他标准浪费时间而感到羞耻。我认为知道我们有内在的价值是非常重要的。我们不需要证明它；我们可以只是做自己。

However, if you're truly wanting to change your lifestyle a bit and aren't sure where to begin, maybe these ideas will help. But I don't know; everyone is different.

然而，如果你真的想改变一下生活方式，但不确定从哪里开始，也许这些想法会有所帮助。但我不知道，每个人都是不同的。

l went looking for my dreams outside of myself and discovered.

It's not what the world holds for you, it's what you bring to it.

- Lucy Maud Montgomery

 我曾追寻梦想，希望在自己之外找到答案，但我发现，

重要的不是世界给予你什么，而是你能为世界带来什么。

——卢西·莫德·蒙哥马利

I know this is an obvious one, but distractions that give us instant gratification over long-term rewards can have a strong pull on our time off. Limiting these things may be uncomfortable at first. You may find yourself not wanting to be without them, but over time, you'll get used to it and may find a renewal of interest and energy to put into other things that bring you joy.

我知道这是一个显而易见的观点，但能够立即得到满足感而不是长期回报的分散注意力可能会在我们的休息时间占用很多时间。一开始限制这些东西可能会让人感到不适。你可能会发现自己不想离开它们，但随着时间的推移，你会习惯，可能会找到重新投入其他带给你快乐的事情的兴趣和能量。

At least for me, I found I had more energy when I simply didn't have the option of scrolling for hours or watching TV more than I wished. And again, there's nothing wrong with this, but it may help to limit it if you really want to put time into other projects. After I forced myself to find alternative forms of entertainment, I slowly developed the energy and interest to do them consistently.

至少对我来说，我发现当我根本没有滚动数小时或看电视的选项时，我有更多的精力。再次强调，这没有错，但如果你真的想花时间做其他项目，限制它可能会有所帮助。在我强迫自己寻找其他形式的娱乐之后，我慢慢地培养出了持之以恒的兴趣和能量。

I have been wanting to work on this porch for quite a long time, and I just haven't felt quite up to it. So, I'm glad I got it done today. I've been wanting to paint the furniture and put out some new plants that will thrive in the shade, such as bleeding hearts and forget-me-nots. I'm really happy with how it's all turned out, and now that I'm on a bit of a roll with getting projects done, I'm gonna go make some dried flower art. I've had some flowers pressed between some books for quite a few weeks, so I'm going to take them out and create some art pieces with them. And share that with you because it's a bit of my tradition, not only on this channel but a springtime tradition for myself that I always create art with the spring flowers. So, I will bring you along with me, and I'm going to begin by gathering some lilacs.

我已经想要处理这个门廊很长时间了，但我一直没有感到兴趣。所以，我很高兴今天终于完成了。我一直想要粉刷家具并放些在阴凉处能够茁壮成长的新植物，比如荷包牡丹和勿忘我。我对整个过程感到非常满意，现在我正在继续完成一些其他项目，我要制作一些干花艺术品。我已经把一些花放在书里夹了好几个星期了，所以我打算把它们拿出来，用它们创建一些艺术品。我要和你分享，因为这是我的传统，不仅在这个频道上，而且是我在春天总是用春天的花来创作艺术的传统。所以，我会带着你一起去，我将从收集一些丁香花开始。

Also, I find it helpful to develop a great reverence and value for working on projects and hobbies that benefit your mental health. Perhaps you may not always want to take a long walk or work on a mindful hobby, but if you know you need to do it to manage stress, improve your memory, or feel better, it may help you form the habit. I'm yet to meet someone who wants to do something that's good for them every day, but if their beliefs align with their pastimes, they see that it is necessary to thrive even if it's hard sometimes. And, of course, be patient with your process. It will take time to find what works for you and what helps motivate you to make time for your hobbies and interests. Sometimes it's just... it's just. And I think then we can find peace and acceptance that we're in a time of transition and we may be in a different situation someday. We can embrace our growth and make what smaller changes are possible right now. Perhaps just start with one small step. For me, I found journaling a little every day was a great first step to feeling like I accomplished something small for myself. That one achievement motivated me to make other changes.

另外，我发现培养对有益于心理健康的项目和爱好的崇敬和价值观对我很有帮助。也许你并不总是想要长时间散步或从事有意识的爱好，但如果你知道你需要这样做来管理压力、提高记忆力或感觉更好，那么这可能有助于养成习惯。我还没有遇到过一个人愿意每天做对自己有益的事情，但如果他们的信仰与他们的娱乐活动相符，即使有时很困难，他们也会认识到这是必要的。当然，要耐心面对你的过程。找到适合自己的方法以及帮助你腾出时间从事爱好和兴趣的动力需要时间。有时候就是这样。我认为我们可以找到和接受的平和，我们正处于一个过渡期，也许将来会有不同的情况。我们可以拥抱自己的成长，并做出当前可能的较小的改变。也许只需从一个小小的步骤开始。对我来说，我发现每天写一点日记是感觉自己为自己完成了一些小事情的好方法。那个成就激励了我做其他改变。

Hello, um, this is a project I've been working on all day today, and I have been enjoying it so much, so I wanted to tell you. If it is Springtime where you are living right now and you have access to a nursery or you have some house plants or a bouquet that you can use some of the flowers for dried flower art, that is a wonderful, wonderful craft, and just... it looks so beautiful. It's really hard to mess it up, to be honest.

你好，嗯，这是我今天整天在做的一个项目，我非常喜欢，所以我想告诉你。如果你现在的居住地是春天，你可以去托儿所或者有一些室内植物或一束花，你可以用一些花来做干花艺术，那真是一项美妙的手工艺，而且...它看起来真的很美，坦白说，很难搞砸它。

If you're wondering why I am so close to the camera and I'm kind of backed up in a corner, it's because I haven't actually filmed up here in the tree house room for a very long time. I used to do a lot of clips up here, but it's been a while because my husband Luke has been working on renovating this area. He has a background in construction and he's very good with woodworking. He wants to make this room into a bedroom, we hope. So, here's why you haven't been up here for a while. There are a lot of things moving and changing, and Luke has been working on trying to put in some sort of closet because currently, we don't really have one. There's a very small room back there that doesn't even fit a bed, so we're hoping to move out of that room at some point and be here. So, that is the goal. I'll give you an update once it's done. There is your little home update. It's all chaos and my cat loves it. There's even a shelf in my way, and so I am looking forward to using this room once again. But in the meantime, I have been focusing energy on decorating downstairs because that is what I'm able to do. And yes, that is where I got the idea to do kind of my spring tradition, I think at this point, and work on these pressed flower art designs.

如果你想知道为什么我离摄像头这么近，而且我被推到了一个角落，那是因为我实际上已经很长时间没有在这个树屋房间里拍摄了。我曾经在这里做了很多视频片段，但已经有一段时间了，因为我丈夫卢克一直在翻新这个地方。他有建筑方面的背景，擅长木工。他想把这个房间改成卧室，我们希望如此。所以，这就是为什么你很长时间没有来这里的原因。有很多事情在变动和变化，卢克一直在努力安装一个壁橱，因为目前我们实际上没有一个。那边有一个非常小的房间，甚至没有空间放一张床，所以我们希望以后可以搬出那个房间来住在这里。所以，这是目标。一旦完成，我会给你一个更新。这是你的小家庭更新。一切都一片混乱，我的猫喜欢它。甚至有一个挡住我的架子，所以我期待着再次使用这个房间。但与此同时，我一直在专注于装饰楼下，因为那是我能做的。是的，这就是我想做的春季传统，我认为在这一点上，我想做这些压花艺术设计的传统。

So, apart from that, it has been a fairly busy week, and I don't know what next week is going to look like. My little puppy has a little lump on his head that has been there for a little while, and the veterinarian said it was finally time to probably remove it, so I might be having surgery next week. That has been something that's been a bit on my mind, so we'll see how the next week goes. Hopefully, everything's okay. But he is doing really well right now, and he's getting a lot of treats and a lot of extra pets, and he's very, very happy.

除此之外，这个星期过得相当忙碌，我不知道下个星期会是什么样子。我的小狗头上有个小肿块，已经有一段时间了，兽医说现在可能是时候把它移除了，所以下个星期我可能要做手术。这是我一直在想的事情，所以我们会看看下个星期会怎么样。希望一切都没问题。但他现在状况非常好，他得到了很多零食和额外的抚摸，他非常非常开心。

I have also been spending quite a bit of time reading. I think I've read about 50 books this year so far. I think it has been quite shocking to me to have read so many books. I think it's because I really made an effort to pick up my book over my phone this year, and that has made a huge difference. I've been so excited about all the new stories I've been reading. I recently started "Painted Devils" by Margaret Owen. The cover looks a little bit spooky, so I'm not sure if it's going to be my cup of tea. However, I really loved her first book in the series called "Little Thieves," and it was all inspired by Germanic folklore, and I really enjoyed it. So, I'm gonna see how this one goes, and I will keep you updated on all my new reading adventures.

我今年已经花了相当多的时间阅读。我想我今年迄今已经读了大约50本书，这对我来说相当令人震惊。我认为这是因为我今年真的努力选择拿起书而不是手机，这产生了巨大的差异。我对我一直在阅读的新故事感到非常兴奋。最近我开始阅读玛格丽特·欧文的《Painted Devils》。封面看起来有点可怕，所以我不确定它是否适合我。然而，我非常喜欢她系列中的第一本书《Little Thieves》，它的灵感都来自德国民间传说，我真的很喜欢。所以，我会看看这本书如何，我会向你们汇报我的新阅读冒险。

I hope you enjoyed this topic of this video this week, and let me know if there's any other topics you are interested in hearing about. I know I've talked about this one before, but I did want to revisit it just because it is something that has impacted me greatly this year. You know, really trying to put in new habits and hobbies into my day that I tended to not have time and energy for last year. Last year, I was working three different jobs, and I just felt exhausted all the time. And I got ill as well, and so it was just a very difficult combination that I didn't share too much about on this channel, but I did make a few videos talking about how I was just having a hard time feeling energized and feeling okay. And thankfully, I'm starting to feel a lot better.

希望你们喜欢本周视频的主题，如果有其他你们有兴趣听的主题，请告诉我。我知道我之前已经谈论过这个主题，但我想重新审视它，因为这是今年对我影响很大的事情。你知道，我真的试图养成新的习惯和爱好，去做去年我没有时间和精力做的事情。去年，我有三份不同的工作，我总是感到疲惫不堪。而且我也生病了，所以那是一种非常困难的组合，我没有在这个频道上分享太多，但我确实做了一些视频，谈论了我只是感到没有活力和不太好的时候。幸运的是，我现在感觉好多了。

I will always be someone who is not always feeling very motivated or energized. It is just natural to who I am. But I know that that's something that a lot of people deal with. So, that's why I wanted to talk in this video about at least a few little things that helped me find the motivation and the ability to do at least some things I love every day. Because it is so much easier to just get back from a long workday and just vegetate. And that if you have every right to do that. I think that we sometimes shame ourselves for taking the rest we need. And if you need rest, you need to rest. And that is something that I did a lot of last year.

我永远都不会总是感到非常有动力或精力充沛。这是我天性中的一部分。但我知道这是很多人都会面临的问题。所以，这就是为什么我在这个视频中想谈谈至少帮助我每天都能找到动力和能力去做一些我喜欢的事情的小事情。因为从一天辛苦的工作回来后只是懒散是如此容易。如果你需要休息，你就需要休息。这是我去年做了很多的事情。

And there were times that I felt sorry for myself because I wasn't getting projects done that I really wanted to. But I wish if I could go back to encourage myself and comfort myself. Perhaps things aren't going exactly how you may have wished, but you can do the best you can by taking care of yourself. So that was what I wanted to reiterate in regards to this video. I definitely found spending a little bit more time meditating on my life of today versus tomorrow. What do I want to do with these days, this incredible gift that has been given to me? Developing that philosophy of not what you were doing but why you were doing it in regards to your lifestyle, I think is what will help make a permanent change.

有时候我会因为没有完成我真正想要完成的项目而感到遗憾。但如果我能回到过去，鼓励自己，安慰自己。也许事情并不会按照你的期望发展，但你可以尽力照顾好自己。所以这就是我想在这个视频中重申的。我绝对发现多花一点时间思考我今天的生活与明天的生活之间的区别是多么有益。我想要用这些天，这个给予我的不可思议的礼物，来做些什么？在生活方式方面，发展不是你在做什么，而是为什么在做的哲学，我认为这将帮助实现永久的改变。

For me, I used to force myself to try to eat healthier food because I thought that it was just good for me and it's what I should do and I should just force it. But it wasn't until I got quite ill and then I wasn't feeling well, I realized I wanted to put great value in living a long and healthy life, at least as healthy as I'm capable of living. And that philosophy, developing that reason why I was making those lifestyle changes, is what actually made it happen. Not just forcing myself to do it without any other reason but just that I should do it. Defining what you want to be doing with your life, not what someone else told you you should be doing or what society makes you feel like you should be doing, but what you really, really want to do, I think can be so helpful.

对我来说，以前我强迫自己尝试吃更健康的食物，因为我认为这对我有好处，这就是我应该做的，我应该强迫自己去做。但直到我病得很重，然后我感觉不好，我才意识到我想要把长寿和健康的价值放在第一位，至少我能够过上尽可能健康的生活。而且，那个哲学，发展那个为什么我要做这些生活方式改变的原因，实际上才使它发生。不只是强迫自己去做，没有任何其他原因，只是因为我应该去做。定义你想要用你的生活做什么，不是别人告诉你你应该做什么，或是社会让你觉得你应该做什么，而是你真正、真正想要做的，我认为会非常有帮助。

For me, it was about following my spirit and seeing where that takes me and what lifestyle changes I feel I not only want to do but I need to do for my mental health, for my stress management, for feeling better altogether, feeling like the days are full of more fulfillment. That made all the difference. The "why" is so much more important, I think, than the "what" you are doing.

对我来说，这是关于跟随我的内心，看看它会带我去哪里，我会为我的心理健康，为了应对压力，为了感觉更好，为了让每一天都充满更多的满足感而做出哪些生活方式的改变，这才真正有了不同。我认为“为什么”比你在做什么更重要得多。

And I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful week, and you maybe try a new craft or hobby this week, or just try to do something a little bit different that you usually don't do. Maybe just spend a little time writing down how you feel in a journal or going on a walk or learning something new. And let me know if there's any other topics you'd like me to cover in a video. And I will see you very soon. Sending so much love. Goodbye.

我希望你有一个美好的一周，也许你可以尝试一种新的手工艺或爱好，或者只是尝试一些你通常不做的事情。也许只是花一点时间在日记里写下你的感受，或者散步或学些新东西。如果有其他主题你想我在视频中讨论，请告诉我。我很快就会再见到你们。寄去满满的爱。再见。