The punishment

I think I get punishment from having s*x with someone that I like. 

I think I get punishment from being who i am and being the confident bossy gal.

I think I get punishment from loving others, supporting them and trusting completely.

I don't know what to do other than just waiting, waiting someone new to love me.

Bye Alex, bye to the memories that we have great laugh together.

What did I do to let the god punish me and why can't I enjoy the s*x?

Life is so unfair,

and I am disappointed.