【搬运】【译】叉婊Pitchfork评 Billie Eilish 2019年单曲《everything i wanted》
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翻译：Lynn Liu
校对：Ryan-Chopin
推送：Lynn Liu
Pain always stays in the center of Billie Eilish’s songs, loud and neon, vibrating under snares. Her debut album from earlier this year, When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, was filled with haunted trap fantasias about wanting to die and feeling alone, punctuated with samples of The Office and an unforgettable “duh!” On the first song she has released since, she strips away any winking irony. “everything i wanted” is a meditation on the 17-year-old’s newfound fame. “’Cause everybody wants something from me now,” she sings, and then whispers, so quietly you have to adjust the volume to hear, “and I don’t want to let them down.” She sings about screaming underwater, clawing for air in public, jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge with none of the many people watching her offering help. Her voice alternates between long, curling drags and moments where it seems to shatter against the mic.
“痛苦”总是Billie Eilis的音乐中心，响亮且富有霓虹色彩，在电子鼓的节奏下颤动着。她的首张专辑《When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?》发行于今年早些时候，这张专辑充斥着死亡与孤独的奇妙电子幻想曲，不时穿插着《办公室（The Office）》的采样以及令人印象深刻的“duh”！在她随后发行的这一首歌曲中，她去掉了所有的冷嘲热讽。“everything i wanted”是对十七岁年少成名的沉思。“Cause everybody wants something from me now（因为每个人都想从我这知道些什么）”她唱到，然后她开始低声耳语，声音小到你必须调整音量才能听到，“and I don’t want to let them down（我不想让他们失望）”。她唱的是在水中求救、在公众场合抓空气、从金门大桥上跳下，却没有一个人朝她伸出援手。她的声音在绵长、卷曲的延音和在麦克风旁心碎的瞬间间交替出现。
The song is dedicated to her brother and producer Finneas, a tender, just-shy-of-saccharine ode to his support. Layered vocals swell and surround her in the bridge as she asks, over and over, if she would do this all again, if she knew what she knew now. It is the greatest cliché of celebrity: to have everything you’ve wanted and to still end up miserable. But Billie dismantles the trope into a raw reverie, flushing out and flashing at her pain.
“everything i wanted”是她献给她的兄长兼制作人Finneas的赞美之歌，这首歌温柔、且有些甜蜜羞涩。她一遍又一遍地问着，如果她知道她现在所知道的一切，她会不会再这样做，同时她那富有层次感的声音饱满起来、紧紧将她环绕于孤桥之上。这是名人最老生常谈的一句话：即使拥有你想要的一切，但结局依旧悲惨。但是Billie把这个比喻变成了一个原始的幻想，冲出这个困境，在她的痛苦中闪烁着。
